"ILL​.​"

by Matthew Danger Lippman

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about

"MDL is ILL" was recorded 2016-2018 in a lotta bedrooms: Izzy's in Harlem, Arden's at SUNY P, the Lassman home in BK, ILL-VILLE in Philly (strictly coincidence), Israel's in Harlem. That shitty ending rap was recorded in MY bedroom in BK!!

I wrote, produced, performed, played, + engineered it all except: Arden Yonkers engineered + played drums/bass on "THE DRILL"; Mark Lynch played + engineered drums on "ill" and "BE TRUE." Arden + I mixed it. Jack Tael mastered it. Their input is vital to this thing.

credits

released September 7, 2018

MDL: vocals, guitars, bass, drums, piano, synth, PSR-12 organ, PSR-36, computer bass, computer synth, beat programming, bells, beatbox, sampling, feedback, Gameboy, handclaps, field recording, engineering

Dean Chatham.......... intro vocals for the LP
Leo Frampton........... guitar line on "ill."
Mark Lynch............... drums on "ill." & "be true"
Arden Yonkers.......... bass, drums, & backing vocals on "THE DRILL"

"friends (in the park)" features a sample of "Love You" by Milkweed, written by Arden Yonkers; and a sample of "Stay at Home" by Local Onlys, written by Jacob Smolinski. they're my friends... get it?

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Track Name: it's time 2 get...
at the gathering, dressed to a T, tattling
telling stories 'bout indie rockers is acting again
telling Tori the secret to blog write-ups is soaking yer backstory in contextual saccharine
that's artificial but beneficial to sick-sweet Pratt graduates sipping Starbucks in the summer heat
stealing knowledge is pirating Logic, making beats

beats

ILL.
Track Name: ill.
I've felt ill all summer
and no one can cure me
no pills please mother
they only obscure me

& my brain is hanging on by a thread
and I feel I'm going insane
I'm hungover and half-dead
and I don't know who is to blame

I've felt ill
everyone's acting so erratic
broken 40 bottles in the attic
tinnitus-ridden ears with constant static
I stood too close to the amps
& now I'm close to the edge

Frozen margaritas by the ledge
and they cost twice my hourly wage
who's gonna pay the bill?

They're telling me to act my age
But how am I supposed to do it when I've felt ill?
Track Name: THE DRILL
EVERY MORNING IT'S FIND MY WORKSHIRT AND GET MYSELF OUTTA BED
EVERY MORNING IT'S DOUBLE ADVIL AND GREEN TEA FOR MY HEAD
EVERY MORNING IT'S REVIEWING LAST NIGHT, REGRET EVERYTHING THAT I SAID
EVERY MORNING IT'S BACON EGG & CHEESE ON WHOLE WHEAT BREAD

IT'S THE DRILL

EVERY EVENING IT'S EVERYBODY SAYS "EVERYTHING'S OUTTA SIGHT"
EVERY EVENING IT'S GOTTA BE A "IT'S GONNA BE A BEAUTIFUL NIGHT"
EVERY EVENING IT'S DOLLAR PIZZA AND "CAN I PLEASE HAVE A BITE?"
EVERY EVENING IT'S EVERYBODY SAYS "ARE YOU FEELING ALRIGHT?"

RIGHT
RIGHT
RIGHT
IT'S THE DRILL
Track Name: DECI$IONS
I got a new place
it looks a lot like the old place
it's more spacious, giving me more time to waste

I got a new face
it looks a lot like the old face
it's more gracious, given to small stabs at embracing new ideas
I'm tearing my hair out tryna rid myself of old fears

old fears, with less beer
I'm in here

we want more, we want more, we want more
we want a new religion
help me make my deci$ions

we want more, we want more, we want more
we want a new religion
help me make my deci$ions

{I've tried praying & I've tried love
& I've tried beating my head
everybody's going away
everybody's going away}

we want more, we want more, we want more
we want a new religion
help me make my deci$ions

we want more, we want more, we want more
we want a new religion
help me make my deci$ions

we want a new religion
Track Name: be true
built like Sophocles
when I'm in the mood
said "it's getting late
whatchu tryna do?"

all in love is fair
but fair's not always true
yeah, we're getting there
can I come back with you?

be true, always be true
you and I don't lie we're in disguise
& do you ever wonder why?

built like baby doll
when I'm in your room
said you're "running late"
whatchu tryna do?

all in love is doomed
but doom is far away
but we're getting there
can I stay here with you?

through doom, through grief always be true
you and I don't lie we're in denial
& don't you ever ask me why
Track Name: MDLSD
woke up with phone ringing, a call from Adenoi
he's asking me to help find him ergot alkaloids
and help him synthesize some LSD-25
and drop it like rain from out the sky

she said "Son, I am the father of man
I shot this through yer skull instantly so let's plan
I need to make quick work of this work that I call humanity
get em on one consciousness and lose their vanity
I'm tired of fake friends and all these fake fans of me
yes, you understanding me?"

I said "yes yes I understand I'll help you out
just in exchange please give me Bandcamp clout
cuz it'll take me quite a while to help the world fight denial
with drug induced epiphanies
instead of being holed up in my room making tunes,
being stupid; acid, shrooms,
cerebellum full of velum pornographic moods for Facebook dudes"

"agreed, I'll give you all the plays you'll ever need
to haggle with God, you're a special breed
now get on your way and cook up the serum to save our souls
rap game Tim Leary and you're outta control"

so I went in
found vials of acid took it and sent in
to the lab for tests; and at God's behest
I manufactured then saturated the land with it

I did a wink to the sky, refreshed the page then I
was #1 Bandcamper in the land, yer guy!
I hit refresh 2 death
we are fresh til deafness takes over
god chosen, that's the lo fi best
Track Name: ride
in this mission hall, waiting for the boys to come around,
I saw you looking
looking for friendship -- someone to sit by yer side
I needed someone to give me a ride

I couldn't find my way 'round -- new to town,
all confused
all confused, the lonesome blues

yeah, that's what it sounded like!

mr. so-hot stuff, ya act so tough
you act like love's an inconvenience
or a cross to bear
your kind's not rare; you're just not there

ride ride ride
I didn't even wanna ask you for a ride
ride ride
I didn't even wanna ask you for a ride
I love you

& we'll keep on riding and never go back home
never made it
never go back home
just keep on riding
Track Name: ZIP CODE
ZIP CODE MOTHERFUCKER WHAT'S YOUR ZIP CODE
WHAT'S YOUR ZIP CODE MOTHERFUCKER MOTHERFUCKER WHAT'S YOUR ZIP CODE WHAT MOTHERFUCKER IS YOUR ZIP CODE WHAT'S YOUR ZIP ZIP CODE
Track Name: X2
I thought I saw you at Lombardo's
giving side glances to the girls who arrived at the square
(the bitterness bare)
come come now Voltaire, don't people like you?

we're all dressed now for moving on
no more discount prophylactics and cups on the lawn
and there's a part of you that's despondent to see it all gone

(so whatcha saying?)
just turn around baby, don't hold your eyes to the glare
(is anything there?)
it's all just smoke & illusions provoking confusion in you
with nothing to do; is anything true?

take my advice
I'll say it twice (x2)
sugar and spice
isn't it nice when people kick it (x2) with you?

just turn around baby, don't hold your eyes to the glare
(is anything there?)
it's all just peer interactions provoking reactions in you
with nothing to do; is anything true?

take my advice
I'll say it twice (x2)
sugar and spice
isn't it nice when people kick it (x8) with you?
Track Name: you saw it in me
oh, my love
you knew what to do
you saw through the double names, the fake stage glow
y'know, you saw the truth
you saw it in me

(and you said) you saw it in me, too
and I don't know where it may go; it grows, it's misconstrued
but see it in me

please
and I can promise that I'll look for it in you too
see it in me
Track Name: can't keep it togetha
all of my thoughts are up & down
hard to be fun when your mind's elsewhere
can't keep it together when you're around
I loosen up when you're not there

and although it's not serious
the temperature of the room gets high
and all my thoughts, they multiply
& conflate "you" with "us"

all of my friends wanna move away
my head always spins when I hit the ground
we could have fun just groovin' around
I always hate asking you to stay

it's not about the mundane thrill
I'm trying to get my mind right
let go of guilt and petty fights
& free myself from illness

all of my friends are up & down
hard to be fun when you're elsewhere
can't keep it together when you're around
I loosen up when you're right here with me
Track Name: show horse (always.)
I'll be on time
always

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I'll be here always
even when it's inconvenient
Track Name: WHEEL OF CRUELTY
in this life reputations aren't made, they're destroyed
and if you want to live honestly there's people to avoid
the milquetoast, the maladjusted
the overly well-adjusted

you feel trusted; you get busted
you feel trusted, feel trusted...

let's all go on the wheel of cruelty
let's all go for a ride
let's all stand for the unjust indecency
let's all go outside

let's all go for the instant replay
let's all cheer the suicide
let's welcome the uninformed insurgency
let's all die tonight

life reputation's aren't life reputations aren't life reputations aren't life
Track Name: friends (in the park).
(all good)

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